A Path That Picked Me!

Today the flame went out of my heart 😢 Have you ever loved someone so much only to discover it was not returned?  Seems like I have always lived in a make believe world where this happens to me quite often.  Most of my adult life I have felt like I was totally unaccepted.  Searching for the one man who thought I was pretty enough to be his number only.  Trying to be someone's priority.  I have always been the option.  Never finding this make believe man.  But in my head he was so real.   Many very painful life experiences with men who saw that I had a good heart as well as wonderful intentions used me up and dumped me before I could put it together. I was a supporter of folks who had dreams and I would always encourage others and especially "my man."  How did that work for me?  It didn't.  I had gotten so used to being the option in every relationship, I began to not expect anything else.  I have had men that outright use...

When it hurts so bad you have a hard time getting out of bed.   Life.   People.  Wow!  I get so tired always attempting to explain myself.  Every day seems like I know that I will be fighting to be heard.  There are so many reasons to laugh and to smile.   So, why is it that just being me on a day to day basis often consists of folks taking me for a joke? I have always thought I was in the wrong place with the wrong set of people.   I always felt... well misunderstood.   I have no problem sharing me, my talents and my gift of laughter with others until that is the depth of how I am either maltreated or mis-respected.  Yeah, mis-respected. Not necessarily simply disrespected, but a combination of hurt, humiliation and emotional pain.