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Today the flame went out of my heart

Today the flame went out of my heart 😢 Have you ever loved someone so much only to discover it was not returned?  Seems like I have always lived in a make believe world where this happens to me quite often.  Most of my adult life I have felt like I was totally unaccepted.  Searching for the one man who thought I was pretty enough to be his number only.  Trying to be someone's priority.  I have always been the option.  Never finding this make believe man.  But in my head he was so real.   Many very painful life experiences with men who saw that I had a good heart as well as wonderful intentions used me up and dumped me before I could put it together. I was a supporter of folks who had dreams and I would always encourage others and especially "my man."  How did that work for me?  It didn't.  I had gotten so used to being the option in every relationship, I began to not expect anything else.  I have had men that outright use...
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Hurts so bad

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When it hurts so bad you have a hard time getting out of bed.   Life.   People.  Wow!  I get so tired always attempting to explain myself.  Every day seems like I know that I will be fighting to be heard.  There are so many reasons to laugh and to smile.   So, why is it that just being me on a day to day basis often consists of folks taking me for a joke? I have always thought I was in the wrong place with the wrong set of people.   I always felt... well misunderstood.   I have no problem sharing me, my talents and my gift of laughter with others until that is the depth of how I am either maltreated or mis-respected.  Yeah, mis-respected. Not necessarily simply disrespected, but a combination of hurt, humiliation and emotional pain.
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What's Your Name?

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What's your name? What sign are you? Why did you do that? What happened to you just keeping it real? The questions continue to come at you.  Rarely do the answers come when most desired. I thought he loved me.  I thought I loved him.  Ha Ha Ha. I had no idea how I was the only one in that relationship and love had nothing to do with it.
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Don't Change Now

Don't Change Now People often say or tell you something at the beginning of getting to know you that they think you want to hear.  They give you a lot of fluff and in the end you realize that the truth was far from what they told you. Sometimes you fall in love with the pretense of the person and not the person.  A liar and a cheater will always be a liar and a cheater.  They dress the shyt up at first, but soon the truth comes out and their cover is revealed.  In the meantime, you are stuck with a bunch of feelings that you have a hard time putting back together. ~Gyename1225~
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